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(When Love Goes Down The Toliet)

new LJ [21 Dec 2004|07:24pm]
New Lj:


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Geez [21 Dec 2004|04:10pm]
[ mood | confused ]

i wish everyone would stop being so mean to me.

last night was fun. i went to the movies, met justin, (whom is donald and james's friend). hes uber hot! and he was cuddlin with me. i was happy.

lemony snicket's was the bomb. it looked like tim burton's work.

then i get home.
i talk to donnie.
i cant breathe.
im crying too hard.

and i look at my Lj. and i see what an asshole everyone is to me.

and it makes me sad. and angry. because i never did anything to them.

im really just gonna start hangin with james,jeremy,donald,and justin. cause they are fun to be around. i wish i was going to jack britt now.

oh well.

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[20 Dec 2004|10:49pm]
mikey, dont fuckin comment on my LJ you asshole

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[20 Dec 2004|11:26am]
[ mood | sad ]

IT WAS SNOWING!!!!! but now it went bye bye =[

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Everyone should join this. [19 Dec 2004|08:54pm]

Mine and Melissa's Community.

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well [17 Dec 2004|02:24pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

well on wed. i went to crosswalk and it was so much fun. i have a crush on daniel :( he gave me a kiss and a million hugs and let me play with his tounge ring. =/

so daniel,donnie, and sheldon are coming over in a bit. =)

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=( [14 Dec 2004|11:26pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I sit alone,
Wondering when your plane with crash.
Like I prayed.
And I'll pray for Tuesday to go smoothly.
Even though I pick fight I always loose.
And I'll blame my problems on others,
Because that's what helps me get through,
Not being able to hold something so fake.
You're so fake.

love is hate. love is perfection. perfection dies without hate. we all die without love. we all win with hate. we all die with love.

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gosh =( [14 Dec 2004|10:49pm]
[ mood | shitty ]

i feel like im ruining everything. me and donnie are best friends but everyone wants me to just go away and pretend like he isnt my other half.


i love sheldon so much and i would NEVER hurt her like that.

and fuckin lauren hates me.

god i wish id jsut fuckin die.

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crazyness. [14 Dec 2004|10:06pm]
[ mood | tired ]

so today i went to the basketball game. really i jsut snuck in so i didnt have to pay.
the best part was sitting under the dinosaur with donnie sheldon and lauren. then kirsten and april came. and it was uber warm.

then donnie's mommie came and took us to java cafe. it took us for fuckin ever to decide what we want. lol.

then i went to donnie's/ we chillaxed. it was great.

my sister was being dumb so i JUST got home from his house. lol.we were making snowflakes.

i love donnie with all of me.
and i love sheldon like a skinney kid loves salad.


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i gots supa powas. [13 Dec 2004|04:28pm]
De4thToSe4sons: im making acid wash leggings them putting patches all over them
De4thToSe4sons: want a pair?
XpapermushroomsX: okie
De4thToSe4sons: :-)
XpapermushroomsX: how r u making those
De4thToSe4sons: with my supa powas


oh yea.


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Hm.. [13 Dec 2004|03:47pm]
[ mood | bored ]

today was so weird.

i really like brock. but im probably just saying that. gosh i dont know :'(


thats for sheldon. lol

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DUDE [12 Dec 2004|09:26pm]
this is so gross. i jsut lusted after donnie's crotch!in my fuckin pants
dude. thats against nature. ='(

dude im lusting over DONNIE!

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avoiding the spots we'd have to speak [12 Dec 2004|08:44pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

i just got an email from my dad. i hate crying. i hate bush. i hate war. i hate everything about everyone.

i hate everything i am.
i hate everything i wish i was.

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kiss the demons from my life. [12 Dec 2004|07:33pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

last night was really fun.
i went to rhyan's party with donnie. it was fun.
everyone thinks im donnie's half sister. it might as well be true we are practically insperable. and daniel and brent were like "dude donnie you sister is hot". makes me feel pretty for once. =)

so we were just chillin in Rhyan's room but then we went outside. that wasthe funnest part. was when we were tackling eachother. i tackled so many people and screamed "OWNAGE!!" cause im a P-I-M-P. Hehe. and Rhyan is so pale. its soooo yummy. lol i have to snap out of this.

so then i was palying around with brent and was like "can i cup you?" and he was like "can i cup you?" and jokingly i said "sure why not" and he really did!! i feel violated. lol.

then we went back outside and daniel lost his pants. so i sooo put them on cause im cool like that.


Hehe. i am a dork. so thne while everyone is running around looking for daniel and brent me donnie and sheldon just walk by ourselves. but i really jsut felt alone. cause donnie and sheldon were all cuddling. but i felt happy for them. then sheldon's mom came to pick us up and gave donnie "the talk". and sheldon was like screaming at her mom to shutup when she was telling us what she said and i jsut sang "all i want for X-mas is a hipo-pot-a-mous." lol.

so then they dropped me off, but no one was home. so i jsut went home with them. and we layed on the pool table and watched some gay shit kyle was watching. then byron came home. and i had to tell if his tummy or Sheldon's mommy's tummy was better. >.<

so then we went to bed around 12:30 ish i think. i was uber exausted. then i woke up around like 11:30 i think. and we walked to the java cafe cause i had money. and we got pizza and garlic knots. it was gooooood.

then i went home. i felt uber icky cause i didnt have extra clothes i left my clothes in donnie's bag. and i found out later brent put my pants on, and fit in them. those are fuckin huge on me though. they are my super baggy ones. but still. they arent like HUGE. jsut huge on me.

so im jsut sitting here. i jsut typed up fuckin science notes for me and bailey.

im bored.

this weekend was fun. thanks donnie and sheldon <3

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And I Know i can never have you.... [11 Dec 2004|10:51am]
[ mood | cranky ]

Hm. well i went and saw spoungebob last night it was fun. i love that movie!!

so uh nothing has been going on lately.

i spent the night at kaitie's house. i really miss her. we havent hung out in forever. she likes james. and he was all trying to hold her hand when we were sitting on the swing. and i was like "AWW!" well i didnt say that lol. i just thought it in me brain.Lol.and we couldnt get john's attention to look.

so then we go inside around 11 after chillin with them forever outside. and i was like "i think john is cute" and kaitie is like "i like james alot!!". that would be wierd if we both dated them. cause they are twins. hahahaha.

but i dont LIKE him. i just think john is cute. they arent my "type" i guess you could say. and i hate the fact that they hang out with joey, because joey is an asshole. and he told kaitie he was gonna slap her. and i told him i would chop his balls off and hand them to him. and he got scared. and he wont even talk to me. Lol.

im going to some party tonite with sheldon and donnie. i wish it was a good party. i want to get fucked up. really bad. oh well we'll see.

boring weekend.

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[09 Dec 2004|09:19pm]
[ mood | weird ]

today was fun.

i dont feel like typing it over again so check out my xanga.


im in a wierd mood...

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'Cause i swear im sorry... [08 Dec 2004|09:00pm]
[ mood | weird ]

i just did something so mean. and it is so good that i did it. but its mean because i just did something for myself for the first time in my whole life.

i broke it off with paris. i told her i need to focus on being happy.

and i ended it with "we except the love we think we deserve. Bye."

she said she needs me. thats she loves me. and that im her best friend.

i didnt even say love you before i hung up on her.

and i think its one of the greatest things ive done in a while. because every time i talk to her, i just get evne more sad each time.

i get so mad at people for not being who ive built them up to be. i get this image of these people and who they are, and usually its nothing like who they are, but i want them to be this way, and when they arent i get so mad. like i get mad at them for not being something they arent, i get mad at them for being themselves.

and i get mad at brock when he doesnt pay attention to me, even though i dont like him at all. not even a little. its like i dont know. i confused myself.

and i havent eaten in a while. just a few fries. and thats all. and ive been taking alot of medicine on empty stomaches. which is really bad for you.

im not scared of dying. im scared of not living.

and this scares me. alot.

De4thToSe4sons: im talking to colleen about funerals.
De4thToSe4sons: because she just got home from one
De4thToSe4sons: and im talknig about christines
De4thToSe4sons: and how her mom was screaming.
De4thToSe4sons: and how i hated her for pretending like she was there for her. when she wasnt at all
xDeadOnArrival6: i hope youll think about my mom like that when i die.

i dont think i can do it without him.

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[08 Dec 2004|07:54pm]
Lauren is crazy.
Lauren is small.
Lauren is a whore.
Lauren is okay with being a whore.
Lauren is a lover.
lauren is not a fighter.
Lauren is a person who speakers her mind.
Lauren is not a murderer.
Lauren is a mad cow.
Lauren is a Size Zero.
Lauren is a Reader.
Lauren is a hellion.
Lauren is a respectable Pimp.
Lauren is a crimp pimp.
Lauren is a dork.
Lauren is a dr. pepper lover.
Lauren is a person.
Lauren is a junkie.
Lauren is a girl.
Lauren is a bitch.
Lauren is innocent.

Lauren is unhappy with who she is.

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There's not a word i can comprehind, except when you signed it ill love you always and forever. [08 Dec 2004|06:08pm]
[ mood | sad ]

omg! melissa i really wish you'd get online!! or call me. or ill call you at 9. omg!

okay so i am eating Mcdonalds fries. yum. but now they are all gone.

this song [screaming infidelities] reminds me of that night me and carmen went driving around, and we were laying on the bed thing in the back of her van. and her dad went to get something in the store, and we were laughing because we could see uptown undies. and we called tristan, and told him we were in charlotte. then he was like "WHY DIDNT YOU COME GET ME!!!!"

and it was great.

i really miss hanging out with her. but i dont know.

i never catch sterling on aim. its sad. hes never on when i am.

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home again [08 Dec 2004|02:56pm]
[ mood | sick ]

i need to stop staying home before i fail. exams are next week. damn that sucks.

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